Player Name: Ian Character Name: Hanna Falk Cross Path to Graduation:
When Hanna first arrived on the Barge he was a bit PO’d that he'd been selected as an Inmate. He didn't believe that anything he'd ever done would discredit him enough to not be a warden, especially with the Wardens he had already encountered on board. He felt he needed to keep his shit to himself, and attempted to circulate ridiculous rumors so no one would question his sometimes odd behavior. He generally refused offers of help, didn’t make any attempt at future planning and tried to accomplish most everything by himself rather than considering asking a friend along. With his complete lack of self worth, valuing anyone and everything else over himself in the event that he needed to fix, save or protect anyone, he thought any harm to himself was fine, so long as he managed to make some kind of difference. When faced with mistakes past or present, he attempts to dismiss his own faults or minimizes the harm that he might have caused, going so far as to ignore it completely or try to convince himself that if he could fix what he’d done it would be like it never happened .
Each lesson needed multiple passes before it stuck but the first big leap came when Hanna summoned the Otherworld onto the barge. It was the first time that he had been forced to face something he’d done that harmed other people on a scale wider than ever before and was unable to sweep it under the rug. He had to ask Vincent for help to fix it, had to share a part of himself so that his price to fix it, in his mind, was paid fairly and held himself accountable for his own actions. It also planted the seed of self worth when David sacrificed himself so that Hanna could get out. Even if it had hurt to watch him die, he couldn’t ignore what he’d given for him all because he believed Hanna when he said he could stop the nightmare .
Coming off a rather stupid death that could have been easily avoided after the cruise disaster, Hanna is struck by the fact that Vincent cared enough to keep an eye on his corpse, trying not to look the effort straight on. When he discovers Conrad on the Narrenschiff shortly after and still tolling, he is finally forced to talk to him plainly, surprised that he had died(again), and isn’t able to ignore Conrad’s vampirism or the fact that not warning him or even telling him anything he knew about vampires had led to his second death. He apologizes sincerely and stops trying to pretend like what he’d done was fixable, asking rather than telling Conrad if he can help him try to leave the Narrenschiff. On the return back to the Barge, Hanna manages to make plans with multiple people in an effort to ‘rescue’ some of the crew onto the Barge, and even though it doesn’t work and he blames himself for the failure, David reassures him that the effort was worth it and he was thankful that he still tried.
A big push comes unexpectedly through grief as the holidays approach. The dawnlight, something that Hanna would normally never feel comfortable participating in, finds him valuing help over his own secrets, finding that the ones he decides to share them with take that information with the weight and respect that one should expect, but Hanna never does. With the door cracked open, he manages to admit to Sheehan what actually happened to him, a story he’s never had the chance to tell before with a captive, understanding audience, and while it makes him uncomfortable, it paves the way for sharing with it with a few others, including returning the removed part of his file to Taylor so that she can finally get the full picture rather than the pieces that came after.
A string of disappearances on the barge push Hanna into hiding, trying to keep himself from reacting badly to people he’s starting to accept actually care about him, but when David leaves a letter behind, something to hold onto after he’s gone, it does more help than hurt. Encouraged to find a place to be proud of stopping, Hanna finally admits why he doesn’t seem to care what happens to him, and despite his hesitancy to change it, accepts that it’s not right and that he’ll think about how thinking that way hurts the people who care about him.
The final push comes in the Cat King murdering Hanna for all his perceived slights, some small, some irrational, and Hanna can’t help but try and bargain with him to try and prevent it. The value of himself in this equation is still small, but paired with how he knows what is going to happen to him will hurt and affect the people who care about him, he’s desperate to change his mind. And when that doesn’t work, and he’s laid up in bed with terrible pain, he has to think about the price he paid for something so incredibly stupid and worthless, for the first time in years getting angry on behalf of himself and how he was treated. The numbers can’t add up, and he promises that he won’t let it happen again if he can help it, taking both the threat of reoffense and his own safety seriously.
Hanna is staying on as a warden now that he’s graduated and is of the mentality that monsters are not things, they exist as actions and that everyone has the capacity for them, but they also have the capacity to do great things. Despite his fumbling as a detective, Hanna is extremely dedicated and does not half ass tasks when they are asked of him, unwavering and borderline obnoxious in his tenacity. He’s also a good negotiator, and while he’s nice, he’s not a push over and his experiences have definitely given him the ability to look at things from a number of different angles most might not. Hanna’s self esteem is still growing, and while his empathy was never a problem that could be fixed, he at least will be practicing it with his own self factored in, and that’s certainly a world's difference away from where he started.
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Character Name: Hanna Falk Cross
Path to Graduation:
When Hanna first arrived on the Barge he was a bit PO’d that he'd been selected as an Inmate. He didn't believe that anything he'd ever done would discredit him enough to not be a warden, especially with the Wardens he had already encountered on board. He felt he needed to keep his shit to himself, and attempted to circulate ridiculous rumors so no one would question his sometimes odd behavior. He generally refused offers of help, didn’t make any attempt at future planning and tried to accomplish most everything by himself rather than considering asking a friend along. With his complete lack of self worth, valuing anyone and everything else over himself in the event that he needed to fix, save or protect anyone, he thought any harm to himself was fine, so long as he managed to make some kind of difference. When faced with mistakes past or present, he attempts to dismiss his own faults or minimizes the harm that he might have caused, going so far as to ignore it completely or try to convince himself that if he could fix what he’d done it would be like it never happened .
Each lesson needed multiple passes before it stuck but the first big leap came when Hanna summoned the Otherworld onto the barge. It was the first time that he had been forced to face something he’d done that harmed other people on a scale wider than ever before and was unable to sweep it under the rug. He had to ask Vincent for help to fix it, had to share a part of himself so that his price to fix it, in his mind, was paid fairly and held himself accountable for his own actions. It also planted the seed of self worth when David sacrificed himself so that Hanna could get out. Even if it had hurt to watch him die, he couldn’t ignore what he’d given for him all because he believed Hanna when he said he could stop the nightmare .
Coming off a rather stupid death that could have been easily avoided after the cruise disaster, Hanna is struck by the fact that Vincent cared enough to keep an eye on his corpse, trying not to look the effort straight on. When he discovers Conrad on the Narrenschiff shortly after and still tolling, he is finally forced to talk to him plainly, surprised that he had died(again), and isn’t able to ignore Conrad’s vampirism or the fact that not warning him or even telling him anything he knew about vampires had led to his second death. He apologizes sincerely and stops trying to pretend like what he’d done was fixable, asking rather than telling Conrad if he can help him try to leave the Narrenschiff. On the return back to the Barge, Hanna manages to make plans with multiple people in an effort to ‘rescue’ some of the crew onto the Barge, and even though it doesn’t work and he blames himself for the failure, David reassures him that the effort was worth it and he was thankful that he still tried.
A big push comes unexpectedly through grief as the holidays approach. The dawnlight, something that Hanna would normally never feel comfortable participating in, finds him valuing help over his own secrets, finding that the ones he decides to share them with take that information with the weight and respect that one should expect, but Hanna never does. With the door cracked open, he manages to admit to Sheehan what actually happened to him, a story he’s never had the chance to tell before with a captive, understanding audience, and while it makes him uncomfortable, it paves the way for sharing with it with a few others, including returning the removed part of his file to Taylor so that she can finally get the full picture rather than the pieces that came after.
A string of disappearances on the barge push Hanna into hiding, trying to keep himself from reacting badly to people he’s starting to accept actually care about him, but when David leaves a letter behind, something to hold onto after he’s gone, it does more help than hurt. Encouraged to find a place to be proud of stopping, Hanna finally admits why he doesn’t seem to care what happens to him, and despite his hesitancy to change it, accepts that it’s not right and that he’ll think about how thinking that way hurts the people who care about him.
The final push comes in the Cat King murdering Hanna for all his perceived slights, some small, some irrational, and Hanna can’t help but try and bargain with him to try and prevent it. The value of himself in this equation is still small, but paired with how he knows what is going to happen to him will hurt and affect the people who care about him, he’s desperate to change his mind. And when that doesn’t work, and he’s laid up in bed with terrible pain, he has to think about the price he paid for something so incredibly stupid and worthless, for the first time in years getting angry on behalf of himself and how he was treated. The numbers can’t add up, and he promises that he won’t let it happen again if he can help it, taking both the threat of reoffense and his own safety seriously.
Hanna is staying on as a warden now that he’s graduated and is of the mentality that monsters are not things, they exist as actions and that everyone has the capacity for them, but they also have the capacity to do great things. Despite his fumbling as a detective, Hanna is extremely dedicated and does not half ass tasks when they are asked of him, unwavering and borderline obnoxious in his tenacity. He’s also a good negotiator, and while he’s nice, he’s not a push over and his experiences have definitely given him the ability to look at things from a number of different angles most might not. Hanna’s self esteem is still growing, and while his empathy was never a problem that could be fixed, he at least will be practicing it with his own self factored in, and that’s certainly a world's difference away from where he started.